My feelings and I

Hooray! Here comes my winter break.. Unfortunately, it has shorten to a month.. I used to have 2 months winter break.. Thus, I'm going to fully utilize my ONE month holiday.. Gonna make it a wonderful and awesome holiday.. I'm so bored now.. Is 2.15am but my eyes are wide open. I thought of watching Vampire Diaries but seems like I am not in the mood for that. Anyway, I had watch X-Men First Class; it is a nice movie and has encourage me to watch all the other X-Men which I havent watch. So, spending whole night watching X-Men Dvds, I guess I need a rest before watching X-Men: Origins of Wolverine.. My mind is full of X-Men and nothing else.. LOL!

*Watched in a day*

Actually, I have something to blog about but I have no idea how to phrase all those in words. Sometimes, I cant understand why am I feeling so and sometimes I cant control how I feel yet I cant express it. Feeling is so incredible but complicated at the same time. It is undeniable too. At times I really wish I wont have such feelings but I cant stop myself from feeling so. Insecurity, Jealously, Anger, and ... I dont want myself to be too sensitive but I cant control. Most of all, I realise that some people really wants to be loyal but their feelings will betray them. That's why FEELING is uncontrollable and unexplainable. I really want to share my feelings with my loved one all the time but I CANT do so without any valid reason. What are FEELINGS and EMOTION? Bla Bla Bla..

So What is Love? Feelings? What about Friendship? Feelings for friend?

The month of April

I've nothing interesting to blog about. Most of all, it has been a long time I never feel so free. I'm home alone ~ Playing my games, reading magazine, doing my homework and watching astro. Even bought lunch home and enjoy eating alone. phewwww! so relax! But it will be only for a day.. Assignments, presentations and exams are right the corner. No time to leisure around. Anyhow, What have happened throughout the month of April? I'm too lazy so I'll list them out =)

• Celebrated my aunt's birthday. Had a nice dinner at Little Cottage..
• how I wish my mum is still here
• Jessie came to Penang.. So happy! Though is just a day but it was a wonderful day! 
• sorry for not having dinner with her. hope her next visit wont be so sudden =)
• Celebrated Zi How's birthday.. It has been quite some time I didnt go red box/ karaoke.. So had fun singing at his house after the party..
• seems like is the first time celebrating his birthday with him =P
• Watched quite a number of movie - Thor, Fast & Furious 5 (the best movie), The Lost Bladesman, A Chinese Ghost Story, Scream 4 
• I guess that's all ; cant really remember anymore
• Enjoyed a week of break but felt sick! But luckily I have my Baby Honey to take care of me. Thanks Baby.. ♥ you!
• Cough, Fever, Sore throat, Flu = Hate! 
• Oh ya! Had dinner with my three besties; Deb, Dede and Su. ♥ them!
•  must be thinking why it is so special.. Because I hardly hang out with them. sobbies
• However, bad news - broken-heart Phoebe! Hope she'll recover asap.. Wish her luck.. hugs ♥
•  I was shocked about the news though.

I think all those have made up my month of April. It was an ordinary month. Oppss!! Almost forgotten. Today I have a bad news for myself; disappointed with my Business Law midterms marks! I think I screwed the quiz and midterm. Now, I need to work extra hard for my Finals in order to get distinction. Moving towards 2nd honor degree but is killing me. I doubt my own capability. Sigh! 

Another event for today ~ Deborah's Birthday! I managed to be the first to call her & had her first meal with her at Greenlane MCD. The lucky me =)

Happy Birthday, my dear Debbie! 

*hugs & kisses* 

Sometimes I really hate myself being so. It always ended up with negative consequences. Wondering who could I share my feelings and thoughts with; the someone who can truly understand me or perhaps empathize me. Just like everyone; I hate being sad and emo. I wish I could make myself happy rather than depending on others to provide me happiness. I learn about putting too much hope may bring yourself most disappointment. As a young adult, what is your life about? What are your responsibilities? In relationship, how much effort can you put in? No one could measure the effort and love. To accept and endure are the actions which lied on your own hands. Tolerance or Compromise? What is the difference and which is the best? You may think that you are living in a warm and cozy house but in fact, all these are just a dream. A dream that you'll have to wake up eventually. My heart is always at the weakest point and I have no idea how to make it strong once again. Being indecisive is giving more problems than usual. A perfect dream would be the only thing I wish I could have at this moment. However, if I get to choose, I want to stay in the dream that I have right now. I love this dreamland of mine.

What a day! Sometimes I cant explain why things turn out this way. Neither could I predict it. I wish I could fix it; make it a better one. However, I have no idea how to do it. So I guess I could only live with it. I cant stop how I feel but I could choose how to deal with it =) Sometimes being too sensitive with the surrounding isn't a good thing. It may bring me nightmare. The time ticking & the world is changing. I wish there are certain things remain the same especially FRIENDS who are really important to me. Although I know that sometimes we cant stop anything or anyone to change, we can change to adapt to it.

END ~ ing

It has been more than 2 months. I left it empty with no updates. Why so? I'm lazy especially when it comes to uploading pictures. What have I gone through so far when I'm gone from here? Hmmm.. Practically nothing much besides SLEEPING! My favourite job during my holidays. Life goes up and down. I went through them though. Not forgetting having my besties there for me. THANKS =) After all, Tomorrow is a new day for me. Is time to back in COLLEGE.. Arghhh!! I hate assignments and morning classes. Unfortunately, no escape for me. Sigh! Oppss! A little updates during my holidays:

• Langkawi trip with my Buddies 
• Skyping with Jessie
• Learn Mahjong as my entertainment during Chinese New Year
• Valentines' dinner at The Ship
• Watching dramas at home and movies at cinema
• Last but not least, having Baby Honey sleeping with me most of the nights!
• Oh ya! the recent one : Celebrated Dede's 22nd BIRTHDAY =)

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED BESTIE : DEBRA HUAN *Love Ya* HUGSS!