Saturday, October 30, 2010

Nothing is easy to be done!

What a life am I going through right now? I cant even answer myself. Stupid ME! I'm tired with everything around me. Even those that bring me happiness, I can no longer smile from my heart.

It is so difficult to understand a person and make the person happy. Although I thought that I understand the person well, in the end I might be wrong about that person. NAH! Forget about this.

I feel that I'm a failure because I cant make you happy and yet making you to reach the saddest point of life. I've been wondering what can I do? Is time the matter? Money? Personality? I wish that people around me could appreciate things that I have done for them and most of all appreciate me. I do not need anyone to repay me. However, is MONEY so important that it will leads to happiness and sadness? Hmmm.. Yesss!! It is important to me but for sure it is not the most important thing in my life. What about you? What do you think about money?

Okay, let's move on to the next topic. Do everyone has expectation? Is your expectations too high or too low? Or perhaps no expectation? Nevertheless, I'm a person with high expectation but I realised the negative impacts of it. It is all about suffering. The higher your expectation, the suffer and pain that you are going to through is definitely more. Hence, lower your expectation, take things easy and in a relaxing manner. It will give you happiness. But not too low or without expectations because it will make your life become meaningless and aimless. Hah! That's what i believe in.

Ahem! What about being committed and in love? Is love always in the air? DUH! Yeshhhh!! During the first few months of a relationship. As time passes & under different circumstances, the relationship bond between two person may change as well. Is those changes for the better or for the worst? To me, staying committed is to go through everything with your love one no matter what it takes and bring. But the question is, will your love one stay with you and allow you to go through everything with him? Ahhh Errr!!

Alrighty, there is so much for you to think about tonight. Anyway, Why am I here tonight? Because I'm EMO but not elmo.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Why I start Blogging Again?

 Why I start blogging again?
  1. The blog is like my diary which records my chronicle of life.
  2. I have too much in my heart that cant be spoken out to anyone.
  3. Wishing that those who care about me would know what am I going through.
  4. To share my memories with my readers regardless happy, cherish, fun, upset, grateful and ...
  5. To keep myself up with something when HE is busy.
  6. Enable me to have a smile or tears at my remembrance
I've been thinking for weeks about the content of my first post. However, I still have no idea so it ended up with this post. This blog reflects the new ME & my new stage of LIFE! My dear readers, there will more post coming up. I hope you all would like it and it will be all about me and everything around me. Then, it will be the moment for you all to find out who is Fiona.