The month of April

I've nothing interesting to blog about. Most of all, it has been a long time I never feel so free. I'm home alone ~ Playing my games, reading magazine, doing my homework and watching astro. Even bought lunch home and enjoy eating alone. phewwww! so relax! But it will be only for a day.. Assignments, presentations and exams are right the corner. No time to leisure around. Anyhow, What have happened throughout the month of April? I'm too lazy so I'll list them out =)

• Celebrated my aunt's birthday. Had a nice dinner at Little Cottage..
• how I wish my mum is still here
• Jessie came to Penang.. So happy! Though is just a day but it was a wonderful day! 
• sorry for not having dinner with her. hope her next visit wont be so sudden =)
• Celebrated Zi How's birthday.. It has been quite some time I didnt go red box/ karaoke.. So had fun singing at his house after the party..
• seems like is the first time celebrating his birthday with him =P
• Watched quite a number of movie - Thor, Fast & Furious 5 (the best movie), The Lost Bladesman, A Chinese Ghost Story, Scream 4 
• I guess that's all ; cant really remember anymore
• Enjoyed a week of break but felt sick! But luckily I have my Baby Honey to take care of me. Thanks Baby.. ♥ you!
• Cough, Fever, Sore throat, Flu = Hate! 
• Oh ya! Had dinner with my three besties; Deb, Dede and Su. ♥ them!
•  must be thinking why it is so special.. Because I hardly hang out with them. sobbies
• However, bad news - broken-heart Phoebe! Hope she'll recover asap.. Wish her luck.. hugs ♥
•  I was shocked about the news though.

I think all those have made up my month of April. It was an ordinary month. Oppss!! Almost forgotten. Today I have a bad news for myself; disappointed with my Business Law midterms marks! I think I screwed the quiz and midterm. Now, I need to work extra hard for my Finals in order to get distinction. Moving towards 2nd honor degree but is killing me. I doubt my own capability. Sigh! 

Another event for today ~ Deborah's Birthday! I managed to be the first to call her & had her first meal with her at Greenlane MCD. The lucky me =)

Happy Birthday, my dear Debbie! 

*hugs & kisses* 

Sometimes I really hate myself being so. It always ended up with negative consequences. Wondering who could I share my feelings and thoughts with; the someone who can truly understand me or perhaps empathize me. Just like everyone; I hate being sad and emo. I wish I could make myself happy rather than depending on others to provide me happiness. I learn about putting too much hope may bring yourself most disappointment. As a young adult, what is your life about? What are your responsibilities? In relationship, how much effort can you put in? No one could measure the effort and love. To accept and endure are the actions which lied on your own hands. Tolerance or Compromise? What is the difference and which is the best? You may think that you are living in a warm and cozy house but in fact, all these are just a dream. A dream that you'll have to wake up eventually. My heart is always at the weakest point and I have no idea how to make it strong once again. Being indecisive is giving more problems than usual. A perfect dream would be the only thing I wish I could have at this moment. However, if I get to choose, I want to stay in the dream that I have right now. I love this dreamland of mine.

What a day! Sometimes I cant explain why things turn out this way. Neither could I predict it. I wish I could fix it; make it a better one. However, I have no idea how to do it. So I guess I could only live with it. I cant stop how I feel but I could choose how to deal with it =) Sometimes being too sensitive with the surrounding isn't a good thing. It may bring me nightmare. The time ticking & the world is changing. I wish there are certain things remain the same especially FRIENDS who are really important to me. Although I know that sometimes we cant stop anything or anyone to change, we can change to adapt to it.

END ~ ing

It has been more than 2 months. I left it empty with no updates. Why so? I'm lazy especially when it comes to uploading pictures. What have I gone through so far when I'm gone from here? Hmmm.. Practically nothing much besides SLEEPING! My favourite job during my holidays. Life goes up and down. I went through them though. Not forgetting having my besties there for me. THANKS =) After all, Tomorrow is a new day for me. Is time to back in COLLEGE.. Arghhh!! I hate assignments and morning classes. Unfortunately, no escape for me. Sigh! Oppss! A little updates during my holidays:

• Langkawi trip with my Buddies 
• Skyping with Jessie
• Learn Mahjong as my entertainment during Chinese New Year
• Valentines' dinner at The Ship
• Watching dramas at home and movies at cinema
• Last but not least, having Baby Honey sleeping with me most of the nights!
• Oh ya! the recent one : Celebrated Dede's 22nd BIRTHDAY =)

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED BESTIE : DEBRA HUAN *Love Ya* HUGSS!

Nothing is easy to be done!

What a life am I going through right now? I cant even answer myself. Stupid ME! I'm tired with everything around me. Even those that bring me happiness, I can no longer smile from my heart.

It is so difficult to understand a person and make the person happy. Although I thought that I understand the person well, in the end I might be wrong about that person. NAH! Forget about this.

I feel that I'm a failure because I cant make you happy and yet making you to reach the saddest point of life. I've been wondering what can I do? Is time the matter? Money? Personality? I wish that people around me could appreciate things that I have done for them and most of all appreciate me. I do not need anyone to repay me. However, is MONEY so important that it will leads to happiness and sadness? Hmmm.. Yesss!! It is important to me but for sure it is not the most important thing in my life. What about you? What do you think about money?

Okay, let's move on to the next topic. Do everyone has expectation? Is your expectations too high or too low? Or perhaps no expectation? Nevertheless, I'm a person with high expectation but I realised the negative impacts of it. It is all about suffering. The higher your expectation, the suffer and pain that you are going to through is definitely more. Hence, lower your expectation, take things easy and in a relaxing manner. It will give you happiness. But not too low or without expectations because it will make your life become meaningless and aimless. Hah! That's what i believe in.

Ahem! What about being committed and in love? Is love always in the air? DUH! Yeshhhh!! During the first few months of a relationship. As time passes & under different circumstances, the relationship bond between two person may change as well. Is those changes for the better or for the worst? To me, staying committed is to go through everything with your love one no matter what it takes and bring. But the question is, will your love one stay with you and allow you to go through everything with him? Ahhh Errr!!

Alrighty, there is so much for you to think about tonight. Anyway, Why am I here tonight? Because I'm EMO but not elmo.

Why I start Blogging Again?

 Why I start blogging again?

1. The blog is like my diary which records my chronicle of life.
2. I have too much in my heart that cant be spoken out to anyone.
3. Wishing that those who care about me would know what am I going through.
4. To share my memories with my readers regardless happy, cherish, fun, upset, grateful and ...
5. To keep myself up with something when HE is busy.
6. Enable me to have a smile or tears at my remembrance. 

I've been thinking for weeks about the content of my first post. However, I still have no idea so it ended up with this post. This blog reflects the new ME & my new stage of LIFE! My dear readers, there will more post coming up. I hope you all would like it and it will be all about me and everything around me. Then, it will be the moment for you all to find out who is Fiona.